Thursday, December 28, 2006

this too shall pass, i hope

dead tired from the year-end meeting slash retreat. fell asleep while watching Studio 23's Grey's Anatomy 3-episode marathon. Didn't get to watch how the love affair between Christina Yang and Preston Burke blossomed. too tired to eat - even chocolate, my comfort food. so in need of comfort - from food or any other source - but too lazy and numb to do anything but cuddle up in bed and cry. sick of how I see-saw between euphoria and hopeless despair. freaky how just another human being can have this kind of effect. Scary how I allowed it. got to get back composure and peace of mind. have to have the appetite for literature and music to keep sane, because right now, I have no taste for both. just want to lie down, sleep until the feeling passes, until the world feels healed and whole again. trying to believe that this, this is a worthless kind of hoping, stupid expectations - bound to disappoint. but somehow that is no consolation. harnessing strength to believe that God knows what he's doing and what's best, but right at this moment, that is a bitter pill to swallow.

2 Comments:

Blogger bulitas said...

di ka nag-iisa ilia.
=(

2:10 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"tulog na, hayaan na muna natin sila, mamaya hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan..."

pakasalan mo na si ebe, tsaka na kami ni kaka hahaha

-jas

2:12 PM  

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